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Name: Cheong siu sin
Country: United States
Metro: Enterprise
Birthday: 9/14/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Basketball, Anime, Manga. I wanna be a chef. Simply love food, sorry i guess u read this everywhere. Songs. Movies. Musical instruments( i can`t play any so fuck it) Swimming...Yes yes go around screaming about this but i do love it...though i can`t swim well .Languages i would like to learn or speak?
japanese. definitely.i`ll speak it one day you`ll see. ganbatte!. * shakes pom pom*
Expertise: N.O.T.H.I.N.G. (so far) i intend to be the best chef around. When you have a goal, reach for it. conquer it. grasp it within ur hands and never let go. wtf am i saying just move on to the next info>_>
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: jason_880914@hotmail.com
Member Since:
1/25/2006
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I don`t know how to put this in words.
This`ll take long though.
How do you respond to a situation like this? One can only imagine when someone you love so much act out of speech. It hurts really bad when your loved ones don`t see the mistakes of themselves but only others, because you would have to correct them. Sooner, or later. It`s been going on for so long that action has to be taken. The process hurts a lot, but the results.... are yet to be seen, for now.
My friends, buddies, babes,dudes,brothers, please don`t misunderstand. I`m talking about someone in particular who is close to me. I will not mention names, for they are not needed. And i am very sure that particular person will not be reading this. This is not a way of me to , some would say, broadcast my grieve nor ask for sympathy. Now i am merely letting all my feelings out after such a long time.
How many things have you done or seen that can make you cry and make you hurt so much that sometimes you just feel like running away or just letting everything down? i`m not talking about fake materials like movies or dramas or songs nor literatures. It`s the real deal.
I know i`m being fucking emo and all but any other emotion coming out from me now would be a lie.
Should i even lie on my own blog?
I know lots of people losing important people, hell it even just happened recently to someone i know. I wouldn`t care less how important that person is to you, but please show respect to them. But hey, it was your loss and how you wanna potray it, so be it. You got a new phone? big deal. what? a new phone and a soon to come car, for THAT price? even if anyone were to give me the best phone or car money can buy, i wouldn`t trade it in, even if i were beaten to death.
You see, Because of this certain person, i became who i am today. Maybe a little old fashioned, but hey that`s me. I care too much for other people`s feelings that sometimes i push my feelings aside. Now tell me, how many times have i moved aside for a friend of mine to get coupled with someone else? lets not even start that.
Man if i were to make the same mistake of blaming others than myself, please tell me. I`d rather the painfull and most probably embarissing truth than a fake compliment or a encouraging pat on the shoulder. None of those will get you anywhere, but the truth might just set me or anyone straight. No matter how much it hurts.
BUT. Everyone has their own opinions. Even though i`m asking for some guidance, please Respect , let me repeat that,
PLEASE RESPECT,
my decisions to live MY life.
I`m guessing that this might be the first time for me to bitch around in my blog, but hey someone`s got to let it out sometime. I still even remember harsh feelings i let go for the first time. some of those feelings were pretty sad and some of them angry.
- the first time my mom scolded me and started crying.
- the first time i had a crush , and after a few years my first rejection.
- the first time i got chased out of the house from my grandma with the cane for acting like a fool, nothing new nor old.
- the first time i had a online gf, which also led to my first break up, ending me being single until now.
- the time i got screwed for being so frustrated at my brother (is isn`t new or old too) over a certain argument, resulting me hitting the computer desk till it`s side were broken, and banging the switch on the wall which closed in on itself. (also the first time i realized my own strength and when i should control it)
- me being angry at myself for being stuck up at certain situations.
- times where your close friends around you start leaving the nest, you get what i mean?
I`m not proud of all the things that i`ve done.
There weren`t only bad memories that were left. and not all tears were tears of grieve. there were also times like when ;
- i had fun just hanging out with my friends (the same friends i still hang out with now)
- meeting new friends and resulting in a close group, which we named !cluc. ( To Brian, Pei, Babes, and Mei. things have been really bad for our clique. but changes DO happen. We all talk about meeting up but we are always not free to do so. Sometimes it`s my fault that things don`t go well and i`m terribly sorry when i don`t reply to babes and pei when they msn me, and when they need me the most) I swear to you, this group changed my view of live and gave me a new perspective.
- going around the place while i drive the gang and we keep going to the same old places ( guys we really need to find some cooler hangout places)
- going to work during my internship and working with my classmates that i never thought could be this close. ( Jeanette, your awesome, i know i might say things that i don`t mean sometimes but hey, i don`t lie. Haqeem, bro your like a Instant-Best-Friend-machine that cheers me up when i needed help and you do know that i`ll be happy to do the same.
- and lots of other things that i can`t come up with right now.
After remembering all these good times that i have, i don`t feel as down as i did. Even though you guys didn`t do it directly, but i wanna give all of you my special thanks for spicing up my life.
Loves.
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| I Tell You Ahh...
i`ve got like a billion-zillion-trillion-gillion (whatever it means) things to say! i mean, who wouldn`t after ya quit blogging just because of your internship *and other reasons too*! Training has been HELL! It`s Comfirmed that training at PJ HILTON SUCKS. I`ve even told my juniors NOT to come, but noooo~ they wouldn`t listen! Oh well, i tried 
2 more days. TWO more days! And all hell breaks loose for me and my classmates. Gosh i can`t believe i`m saying this but i miss college ._. i don`t wanna work!!!! *wails and moans*
I tell you, sometimes people are just so f*cked up they`d even scold you for no reason, even after agreeing to go work early just to take care of a buffet breakfast, and end up doing omelettes the whole morning. The stupid Chef actually asked me questions that even BUMMED the other permanent workers! Asking me prices of other restaurants and stuff.
Chef : Do you know how much the buffet is for `PayaSerai` (a restaurant in the hotel) ?
Me : *Why would i wanna know that?* No sir.
Chef : Do you know how much is the buffet is you only want malay food?
Me : *what kind of a f@#$%d question is that? i thought you go to buffet so you could have all you can eat of everything ?*
No sir.
Chef : where is your notebook?
Me : It`s not with me sir *honestly, i`m NOT in your kitchen and in THIS kitchen we don`t need notebooks ya dumbass*
Chef : *starts lecturing*....
And while he was lecturing my friend, i kinda walked off >_> i was so bored of him listening to his own voice! In fact, he does this to all trainees , except girls. That cock-shiner 
Today was kinda fun i guess. Work was so tiring though. During my break time i was resting with my bro (Haqeem , my classmate) at the resting room and there was this steward sitting beside me, resting as well.
Seriously, i don`t mind anyone resting next to me, but THIS guy... i tell you. He kept !clucking his tongue and he had this walkie-talkie with him, that keeps buzzing every now and then. The problem is, i heard so stupid things like `Dah makan ke? over` (have you eaten? over)
Oh.My.God. 
Now we know where our pay for trainees went. To buy walkie-talkies for their workers just to ask each other if they`ve eaten or not. Whoohoo! Sounds like fun, why don`t we buy them a How-To-Annoy-The-Sleepy-Guy-Next-To-You for dummies too?
Anyway after work i went to the cybercafe with Justin to help him release stress. I guess i was kinda scared i`d have more stress but it worked out fine. After that we went to the ramliburger stall near the fire-station at SS2 which is kinda famous. Ordered out share and waited for them to cook it.
While we were waiting , the fire-station suddenly rang a alarm and a radio started talking. Apparently there was a fire somewhere *pity the person who`s house is on fire or whatever*. We had nothing to do so we actually timed how long it took for them to come out. They took only 2 minutes! Not bad for Malaysian standard =O hip hip horray!
On the way back to our houses, when i was turning at the junction, we saw some illegal trading or however you want to call it happening. We saw the McDelivery man from Mcdonalds and a PizzaHut delivery man talking at the junction. God knows what they were doing =p prolly trading food!
Anyway that`s all i guess that happened today. Now just sitting in front of my com stoning away... i guess i`ll just go into my room and read whatever i can find interesting  that`s it for now and....good...bye!
P.S : I so wanna watch The Simpsons movie!!!
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Great. Exams are finished!
Two weeks holiday! whoohoo!. Well, at least that was what I thought. The whole of this week since monday, i`ve been going to college for my stupid Malaysian Studies assignment. Who the hell gives out a assignment AFTER the finals Well i guess i shouldn`t complain much. I`m sure there are other people with much more difficult assignments to handle, right?  But we can`t help it. It`s in our nature to complain, so don`t be a hatter. Man things have been pretty freaky nowadays. I`ve been winning in dota games *whoohoo* , hanging out with friends, getting high, chatting with really old friends and yeah it`s been nice. Come to think of it i actually really do miss all the things we used to do. Guess that`s what they means by `Treasure high school, cause you`ll never get it back` and also the so-ever-famous `I told you so`. Don`t you just hate it when people are right? 
I tell you. Sometimes people just can`t relax and calm down for a second. They get so frustrated so quickly and mess things up. Relax people. The fatty has spoken *big bell chimes*
Yesterday was a really messed up day. In the morning i was supposed to go play basketball with Justin and we ended up fetching someone to the college, and then going to the cybercafe. Yeah we didn`t play basketball cause it was raining. After satisfying ourselves * yes it came out the way i intended it to * I had to meet some friends in college to finished up our group-forsaken-assignment cause it`s due tomorrow, friday the 23th. I swear our teachers stuck up woman who`s not even married.
I`ve been spending lots of money eating lunches, dinners, and going to the cybercafe these few days. I`m treating it as a holiday occasion. Yes it`s that Sad.Worse thing is, my industrial training starts next Monday. 5 months of either interesting stuff to learn or 5 months of cheap labour hell.
Oh oh i was in mIRC chatting and i saw a really funny link.
Okay. For note, this has NOTHING to do with me
Okay lemme say it again. THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME
LOL.
Got to go, see ya next time. Take care and don`t let the big bugs bite. 
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| Okay. One paper done.
3 more to go. My finals are on-going right now. i just finished one paper and the next paper`s tmr, not forgetting the day after that. My only problem right now is... myself. I can`t get myself to study right now and i have NOO idea what`s the problem . Usually i`d do last minute studying and then rush myself like a dumb ass trying to finish at least reading through the subject notes. But this time, i`m as calm as a water in a cup without a single ripple. I`m not even sweating about it! What the hell is going on here?
The movie `300` is a MUST watch movie. Heads flying, hands falling, legs flying in the air. It`s like butchery festival where 300 goes against a million. ( and for those who don`t know what a million is, it`s 1 plus 6 zeros behind em) That`s one helluva disadvantage don`t you think? The movie was worth every cent I paid for.
You know some of my friends think i have a fetish on younger girls. Well of course not young YOUNG girls, but girls younger than me around secondary. You know what? the more i think about it, the more i can`t deny it  I think i really DO have a fetish for them. Freaky . Okay this is taking my reputation down. Oh wait. I don`t have one in the first place. But that`s what makes it fun anyway.
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At least i`m still bloggin okay!? 
